So I tried and I tried. Sometimes feeling like giving up, but feeling lazy for not striving. No one was pushing me but myself. My need to feel like I could do it all myself.
Guess what.
I can't.
And they can't either.
Something has to give. That old picture with the woman flexing her muscles, with the title "We can do it!", is so true. But what it doesn't say is "We can do it ALL". I'm almost 32 and I just figured that out. I only have one son. And my house isn't that big. My husband DOES work hard, but I stay home. And because of that, we rent. I DO drive a nice car, but it isn't a Beemer. (We do have a apple TV, which I am told is something pretty special but have yet to really understand its' worth).
And yet, I still leave the house in my jammies, sometimes only eat pb&j for three days, and my house is covered in dust. It used to make me crazy. WHY can't I do it all? I should be able to, right? Well, after talking with a girlfriend of mine I realized something. It is the ol "quality of life" question. What would I rather be doing? Stressing myself out to make sure that my house was always perfect, my clothes were pressed, and I put on a great display of "having it all together", OR be at the park with my 3 yr old son, sliding down slides and having a smoothie.
Easy answer for me. "YES I CAN" play with my son and let the dishes sit a little longer.
J
5 comments:
he'll always remember the fun mama, not a dusty house. whenever I'm doing dishes Aidah begs to help (which isn't any help at all) and i've realized that even if it is more work it makes her so happy. i only hope she loves doing dishes so much in 4 years.
I love this Jenn. My house is ALWAYS such a disaster and I was telling Cody last night. Eli is so much happier outside so I am never inside to clean and do landry. No one has it all together. Most women that have clean houses can't cook. So there!
word to yo mama! i hear ya sista friend. thanks for your honesty. this revelation seems to have crossed over into other areas of your life too. i feel like i'm seeing more of a 'real' jenn, and i really like it. way to be sister.
Yes! I keep reminding myself that life is full of seasons, and this two-kids-at-home-all-the-time season of my life is totally consuming. Not a lot of wiggle room or time for extra serving/working/classes, etc. It won't always be like this, so I want to treasure the moments I can, and have the bigger perspective in mind...exactly what you're saying...I am choosing my quality of life, what's important and what's not, and a pristine house and Martha Stewart meals are not on the top of my list! :)
love this post Jenn:) thanks for the honesty and realness. it encourages me to read this, to know that i made the right choice taking the kids to the park today rather than making the house "perfect"
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